Kill your scarcity mindset; fuck around and find out.

Despite all of our other demons, the one that takes the crown and continuously haunts me and my friends, are the ideas that we desperately want to bring to fruition but feel too paralysed to act on.

I think there are others who will share this sentiment. I feel as though my brain does not stop; at certain points of the day, I feel myself drifting into a world where I have curated from the ground up. I walk myself through a dream morning routine, walking to dream job, in a dream outfit in dream city. What the online space calls ‘manifestation’, I call it my own mental asylum.

Could this be a (near) quarter-life crisis? Could this have something to do with the fact I am approaching my mid-twenties with ‘nothing to show for it’? Yes and Yes.

So what has changed?
As terrible as it is to say, the world is unraveling and everything feels like it’s taking a turn for the worst. I am aware the world has never been an breathtaking utopia, however what I, alongside my peers, are witnessing in our adult life, I fear no generation has witnessed before which I admit, absolutely terrifies me. People everywhere are inherently angry and are victims of something or someone. For example, in these 'great United Kingdoms’, we get told paying 30-40% tax on a subpar salary is a good thing, because the tax goes into running our country. The same country with a broken healthcare system, corrupt institutions and a government that doesn't see eye to eye but encourages us to unite in the face of a ‘strong nation’.

Unfortunately, amidst all of this, the one thing that has clicked for me is that I am alone in my journery to prevail and I have to become self-serving. Although incredibly nuanced, it is true that you only get one chance to live, so why would I want to live small? Nothing about me is small; I love loudly and intensely, I have big ambitions and even my laugh takes up all corners of a room. So if the world is literally going to shit, why not take the risk? If I risk it and fail, it’s okay because in the grand scheme of things, the world too is failing us all and I am one in over 8 billion. So why the fuck not?

Ending this with a little titbit from me.
The earlier you come to terms with the fact that growth doesn’t happen in comfortable spaces, the quicker you become the person you want to be. Guess what you actually don’t have to have your entire life figured out right now. Your twenties aren’t for having a set plan, but building it. Which takes time and has its own highs and lows. The people I admire the most in this life are those who have dared to do different, experienced all different walks of life which have consequently impacted them, shaped them. You’re experiences won’t all be great; it might work out or it might not but the most important thing is that you persevere.

And remember that everything is a win, when the goal is to experience.